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Starting a new MS therapy

I have been on quite the journey in treating my MS, over time I have tried and failed many forms of treatment. Although I suffer from a more aggressive form of MS and my options of treatment have only become much more limited over time but I haven’t given up hope that I will find one that works. I have been on Copaxone, Rebif & Avonex when I first started out about 12 yrs ago. Upon becoming paralyzed my drs admitted me and tried Plasmapheresis (blood exchange) it was successful! I was carried in but walked out in the end. When it hit me again not even a year later I was brought back in where they surgically placed a permanent line called a Tunneled Vascular Catheter in my jugular vein, we would be performing Plasmapheresis more often as needed. Shortly after placing my line and beginning this very aggressive and more intensive procedure it was decided that I would begin doing it monthly as a maintenance. I was termed “chronically symptomatic” and they felt it was the best approach. Although my lines didn’t always hold up and I required multiple surgeries to replace them it was in fact my best decision for my disease, the only thing that slowed it down. I remained on that therapy for over 7 yrs until I was no longer benefiting from it. Talk of replacing my line and becoming even more aggressive with it was happening but o wanted to move on, give my body a break. I had it removed and finally decided to give Tysabri a chance. I had to stop allowing my fear of what ifs control my decisions. About a year ago I went down the Tysabri path, it was not effective enough for me. Where do we go from here? My team of Drs were stumped but luckily a new drug intended for PPMS (Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis) *types of MS was released to the general population after 6+ years in trial. Now my first thought was NOPE, No ty! I don’t take newly released meds for at least a year if not longer. I was left with this, I don’t have the luxury to wait. I of course can do what I want but it was not advisable for me to wait it out. So I’m going down the Ocrevus path. I signed up and was approved instantly, I did a 6wk washout and will be getting my first half dose June 14th. The first 2 doses are half doses 2 wks apart to get my body used to the drug. After that one infusion every 6 mos. in between my Drs decided I will continue Acthar Gel Injections to help manage my symptoms, I have yet to experience stability of my MS on a DMD but an hopeful it can and will happen it may also be the answer for my Lupus as well. I am nervous but mostly so excited to continue adding to my journey, I will continue living life to the fullest and as positive as possible. ♡

With the support my family, I can do anything and because of them & their love, I will do everything.

 My Journey 

Walk MS 2017

I am tired…

Open letter to my love…

I am tired. I know you try to understand. You see me go to sleep, you see me wake up. Each and every day is a struggle for me in some other way. Today I might have a hard time holding my head up. Tomorrow I might have a hard time bending over to pick up something I have dropped, and I will drop something often. I am tired. I am tired of being held captive by the monsters that have my mind and body in their steely grip. I never know what kind of day it’s going to be, and I never know what I may be able to accomplish today if anything at all. I may not always be able to think clearly enough to help you with things or the girls with their homework, remember to pay a bill or sometimes even pay one twice! I may forget to stir the food on the stove or take it out of the oven and maybe it will burn. Of course you understand so this will never bother you but it upsets me, because I feel that I’m not doing a good job of taking care of you. I am tired. I am tired of smiling and pretending that everything is okay when inside I feel like crying. At times I hide my deepest feelings inside myself because there’s nothing you can do and I don’t want you suffering for me, this is one thing you just can’t fix. I love that you take the time to understand how difficult each day, each task is for me. Although I am tired of fighting a battle that I feel we may never win, we can’t and won’t stop. I do the very best that I can every day, still not ahead. It feels at times that its never enough. It costs precious energy that I cannot spare to keep fighting and I’d rather save that energy so that I can spend time with you. It might not be a lot of time, but I try to make it quality happy time. I try not to complain, no matter how much pain I may be in or how tired I am. But I am so very tired… I am tired of being sick. I wish that things could go back to the way they were before but I know they can’t. I am sorry I’m not the person you used to know or the happy fun mom that I used to be. No matter how hard I try, that person is lost. All you have left is the person who fights to remain strong, the person that sometimes needs help for the smallest of tasks, the person who has now become your fight too. I’m so grateful that you still look at me with that same loving stare, can laugh at my dumb jokes, are the best husband/father ever and just love me unconditionally. I am just so very tired and…I know you are too. We are tired. I am so happy that we at least have each other to be forever happily tired…together.


Understanding Chronic Illness 

Just Krazed – Just for Fun in a Krazed World

Amazingly Talented~Shocking!

Sofie Dossi is not your average young teenage girl. She saw a video online and decided how she wanted to spend her free time after school. The judges? Shocked that a 14 year old could do it then stunned to find out she’s a pro! When a bow and arrow are in hand aimed directly at them, the judges are then terrified. Amazingly talented, strong young woman!


And then there’s…Alice Fredenham! Wow! She walked onstage sick to her stomach with stage fright, unsure I’d she’s even perform. wearing a white T-shirt and jeans. Thank goodness she got past it, amazing talent! Beautiful, very humble girl. I personally wish she had more self confidence, hopefully it’s something she’ll gain as she goes on. You’ve got to hear this one, we will definitely see her name in lights.
More to come…

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